Disappointment ...

In your eyes, she ll never be good enough...

No matter how much she tries...

and there comes a time,

when she will stand up and shout:

"This is me damn it!

I look the way I look,

think the way I think,

feel the way I feel,

love the way I love!

I am a whole complex package. 

Take me... or leave me. 

Accept me - or walk away!

Do not try to make me feel like less of a person,

just because I don't fit your idea of who I should be

and don't try to change me to fit your mold...

I ll always be your disappointment... "

හීල්ලීම...

පුන්චි එකාව ඔඩොක්කුවෙ තියාන බලා ඉන්නවා මම පාර දිහා.. 

මට මතක් වුනා මම එක දවසක්

පුන්චි තිතක් වෙල නුඹ ඇස් මුවාවෙන් පිට වෙනකල්ම

බලන් හිටිය නේද මුව අයාන කියල.. 

හරියට නුඹෙ රුව බලන් ඉදිල්ලෙන් අල්ලගන්න පුලුවන් වගේ

නුඹම ඇවිත් නුඹම දොඩමලු වෙල නුඹම පිට වෙල ගියා

මම බලා හිටිය හිටි වතම ගල් ගැහිල වගේ.. 

නුඹේ හිතේ මගේ ගැන පුන්චි හරි තෙතමනයක් තිබුනනම්.. 

අඩු ගානෙ මම එහෙම එකක් තිබ්බද කියල එක සැරයක් හරි ඇහුවනම්

බන්දීද අද මම පිට බරවායට පිටි කර බෙහෙත්…

The Rat race...

Am I running the right race? Or a rat race?  What do I want to achieve in life? What is happiness to me? There are times in life where your thinking bulb suddenly flashes for most obvious things you have been dealing over for ages or better, your whole life.

Life is too short to run the wrong race and to realize it only at a latter stage. When you look at your life in retrospect, you should be able to say that all the sacrifices, compromises were for a good enough reason.

Taking the red pill and see through the matrix may not be so much of a thrilling experience. The bitter truth of our lives are realized to most of us, but the bitterness makes us get back to the matrix itself and be there till the last drop of energy of ours is sucked in by the Agents.

As laymen we try to achieve preset targets or goals in our lives and restrict ourselves to our own boundaries or prisons. We compare ourselves with the fellow sprinters and thrive ourselves to excel, in which we create a rat race. A few who can stand the effects of the red pill would select their race and run it mindfully and pass it to the next generation, and for the rest life is a competition.

All your childhood and most of your youth is spent on education and professional achievements. Then you get in to the cooperate life with the intentions of earning better to live better and to be happy but, you will be enslaved until your bones creek. You earn enough but have no time to spend it with your loved ones. You have missed so much in your life, that you feel the hollowness inside as you become old and repent as it is way too late to run the right race all over again.

Think about it…. Is this worth your life? 

Do what makes you happy and that you can enjoy doing day in  and day out. Be with your loved ones, spend quality time with them. Cherish every moment of life and learnt to be happy with trivial things. Don’t wait till you achieve al your targets to take a rest and be happy. Realize what you want out of your life and work towards that. Being mindful can bring a huge difference to your life.

Calm before the storm...

Cold wind blowing about

Throwing her umbrella over the hedge

Brushing her hair off the shoulders

As she walks along the empty street ahead

She has her no-emotions mask on

What a fine poker face it will make

One can say that she is in pain,

Or may be she plots to retaliate

The stillness follows the wind

Trees recovering their full height

She walks in the twilight towards her home

In the calm before the storm…

Pushing your limits...

It’s impossible to know how much you’re capable of until you decide to push your limits. But what is important to understand is that, our break point is at a very higher level than we think it is. In other words you can go on for long after you are done.

Its crucial to find out your break point, so that you know when to stop and until such times you can keep on pushing your limits. What you need to know is whether you are happy doing what you do. If you have your own meaning to what you are at, then its easier for you to excel. All achievements in this world were gained with commitment and sacrifice.